Keep in mind that I was already stressed with planning dinners, gift-giving, and managing a new full-time job that kept me guessing most days because there were too many ropes for this job to become a piece of cake that early. Plus, my days were spent feeling tired and eventually the nausea took over. Work days equaled no time to look at the computer days, and the my days off were spent resting.
On December 23, my fiance and I found out that we were expecting our first child. Talk about shock, fear, and pure awe. I planned to come back to the blog in January, after all my one year blog-versary was coming up, and I wanted to do something special for my readers. With pregnancy, things never go as planned. Most days I spent more time throwing up than anything else, and I was experiencing some serious back pain. The pain had me in bed any moment that I wasn't at work - still does. Eventually, I had to take a trip to the emergency room to be treated for a severe kidney infection. No excuses for abandoning my blog, my readers, and the companies that I was scheduled to work with on upcoming projects. I just couldn't balance pregnancy pain, work, and my blog. Work and the blog was hard enough before I knew I was pregnant.
February until now, I have battled some back pain, excruciating at times, but at least always predictably constant. No suggestions from my doctors seemed to bring relief and eventually twice weekly physical therapy appointments became my norm. Yes, I continued at my job and still work, which is how I suspect that my newest pregnancy came to be: Separation of my pubic bone. From what I know and what I've read there is no way to pinpoint a cause and this pain can just simply occur. I've adjusted my work schedule and will be working fewer hours and days to accommodate my pain. The doctors believe that there is no way to relieve this pain and that it may or may not get worse.
I'm anxious to meet my baby girl, and I want to apologize to readers and to the companies that I left hanging with no response. No that is not like me, and I wish that I would have had the tools to better cope with my news, my pain, and my schedule. First and foremost, I knew that I needed to take care of myself and my child.
Now, I hope to be able to maintain the blog for a short time more with this extra time on my hands. I do not know how much more time I can spend in bed. I need to use this time to blog and to connect. My readers mean everything to me, and I hope we can start over.
I'll share all my pregnancy stories, shopping, information, and anything else that I can manage to sit still long enough and type. It'll be fun, and I can finally know what it is like to be a mommy blogger like many of my peers! Again, apologies! Can we start over?
